I am 25 Years Old, & I still Don't Know What To Do With My Life.

Just a warning, this is by far not a happy post. Skip over this one lol. 

I am currently at a crossroads. I hate when I write my most personal issues, feelings and emotions for the whole world to see, but I honestly just feel like I need to let it out. I will be 26 in less than 3 months. I have no career, no set life goals, my personal relationships aren't at the place I would prefer them to be. I have no money to my name, my credit sucks, and I feel as if I have no purpose.

Damn, I am definitely a catch. NOT. 

I have been trying to stay positive, and look at the bright side of things. For the most part I have been able to do that, but it's just getting harder and harder not to fall in a funk. In the end, my life really isn't all that bad. I am not unhealthy nor is anyone extremely close to me. I have family, friends, and people in my life who truly care about me. I have shelter and I am never hungry. Life should be wonderful right?

Well, nope. 

To me it's not. 

How do I get my shit together and my life started? How do I figure everything out? I am so lost and confused and don't know where to begin. I don't know if I want to go to school or skip it all together. I don't know if I want to be a teacher or go into writing. I don't know If I just want to be a mom and a housewife, or have a career and all that. I just don't know.

When I was younger I had my life planned out. Marry my high school sweetheart by 21. Have kids by 25 and graduate a University by 26. Stupid I know. Life doesn't work that way. Nothing turned out the way I wanted it to, and I don't know if that's ok.

I am so lost with my life right now. I wish I was more motivated to take control and figure out what I want for my future. I have never felt like this before and it's actually a bit depressing. I should have my shit together by now. I shouldn't be my age, and not have a solid relationship, a solid career, or a solid set life. 

how gloomy.

Ok, That's it. I let out all my nasty toxic talk. No more negative, depressing crap. I'm done with it. Time to move forward and get motivated. Wish me luck. 

sorry for the rant. 

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